Joss Wheldon, Mutant Enemy, and the WB own the characters of Buffy the Vampire Slayer.  Just using them.


 
I forgot to tell you…
By Jenn

The three of us were walking through the cemetery, making our last round of patrols.  I looked over to Buffy, who was laughing at something Angel said, which I thought was strange.  I felt such a feeling of longing, as I looked at them…a longing to have what they have…to have what SHE has.  But that can never be, Angel would never return my love…he loved Buffy.  I had accepted that fact, but that didn’t seem to help quench my feelings.

Angel looked over to me and smiled.  “You still with us Willow?”

I glanced up at him, startled out of my thoughts.  I smiled up at him “Yeah, just took a short vacation from life, but now I’m back!”  Angel smiled at me, and I felt my heart flutter.

“Uh oh guys, looks like we got a problem” Angel and I both turned to Buffy, then followed her eyes to the five vamps walking towards us.

‘Will, get back.  We’ll take care of this!”  Angel spoke to me over his shoulder, as the two of them were already walking toward the vamps.

I followed a fair distance behind, knowing I could help if I had to.  As the battle began, I found myself feeling more and more despaired…something bad was going to happen, something awful.    I watched Angel silently, admiring his grace, his strength.  It looked as though we were winning.  Buffy and Angel had each staked one, leaving three left.  One of them had hold of Buffy from behind while another charged her from the front.  She lashed out with a front kick, catching the vamp in the stomach, but he grabbed her around the waist as he went down.  As Buffy fell, she hit her head on a
tombstone and suddenly, she was out.  Unconscious, leaving Angel to finish this.  I pulled out my trusty pencil, and within moments I had eliminated one of Angels opponents.  Angel turned to look at me, a small smile crossing his face.  Suddenly that smile turned to a blank stare of agony.  Angel
reached out to me, whispering my name and seconds later he was gone.
 

**I have a smile
stretched from ear to ear
to see you walking down the road
We meet at the lights
I stare for a while
the world around us disappears**
 
I stood there, my smile having left…replaced by a look of sheer horror.  My rage and agony was so powerful as I looked at the 2 remaining vamps, both were immediately lifted off their feet and propelled onto tree branches, exploding into dust instantly.  I walked slowly to the spot where Angel had last stood.  Tears were streaming down my face.  I glanced over to Buffy, she was still unconscious.  Forgetting her, I leaned down and touched the ashes scattering the ground.  Angel’s ashes…all that was left here of Angel.   A strangled cry escaped my throat…turning into a moan of agony.
 
**Just you and me
on this island of hope
a breath between us could be miles
Let me surround you
my sea to your shore
let me be the calm you seek
Oh and every time I'm close to you
there's too much I can't say
and you just walk away**
 

<I forgot>  I thought to myself.  I forgot to tell him, and now I will never get the chance.  I threw my head back, looking towards the sky, insanely thinking that I might catch a glimpse of him, in heaven.  I heard Buffy stirring and I knew I had to gather myself together.  I had to tell her….the one he loved.
 

**And I forgot
to tell you
I love you
and the night's
too long
and cold here
without you
I grieve in my condition
for I cannot find the words to say I need you so**
 

The three of us were walking through the cemetery, making our last round of patrols.  I was walking between the two of them, and made some comment about not liking Xander very much, which for some reason made Buffy laugh hysterically.  I saw Willow glance at me, and my breath caught.  She really was so beautiful, so incandescent.   She was staring ahead, a glazed look in her eye and I watched as her features went from a smile, to a sad smirk as though she was trying not to cry.  My heart was breaking watching the emotions play across her face.   I couldn’t take it anymore…

"You still with us Willow?”  I asked gently.

She jumped slightly, then smiled lovingly and said

“Yeah, just took a short vacation from life, but now I’m back!”  I smiled down at her, and thought I saw her tremble slightly <must be cold>.

I glanced at Buffy, only to want immediately to look at Willow again.  I couldn’t explain it, but lately my thoughts focused more on Willow than Buffy…could my feelings be changing?  I was pulled away from my thoughts by the sound of Buffy voice…

“Uh oh guys, looks like we got a problem”

Willow and I both glanced at Buffy, then followed her eyes to the five vamps approaching us.  Buffy and I started towards them, I paused and looked over my shoulder,

"Will, get back.  We’ll take care of this!”

I didn’t want her anywhere near the danger…I couldn’t bear it if she got hurt.  We charged into battle, quickly disposing of one a piece.  I knew Willow had followed us, but she was keeping a safe distance, so I wasn’t overly worried.  I saw Buffy get caught out of the corner of my eye, next thing I knew she was out cold.  <Great>  I thought, that leaves me with three….umm two vamps.  One
had suddenly been dusted right in front of me, I turned to see Willow standing there and the pencil floating in mid-air.  She had done it, she was so brave to try to help.  I smiled at her, wishing I could tell her…. suddenly everything stopped and I felt a piercing pain in my chest…I had been staked.  I looked at Willow, reaching out for her, whispering her name…then blackness.
 

**Oh and every time I'm close to you
there's too much I can't say
and you just walk away
And I forgot
to tell you
I love you
and the night's
too long
and cold here
without you**

At the same moment, miles away from each other, two individuals sat straight up in their beds, both sweating and sobbing…hearing the same song and seeing the same visions playing themselves over and over in their minds….and they both knew what they had to do.
 

THE END!!

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